Short Fused

I feel guilty. I know how I am. I don't want to be that way. Most of the time, I have a short temper. Depending on the situation, of course. If it's something I'm trying my hardest to do, but it still won't work. I lose it. Growing up, I was never really shown how to control my stress and anger the healthy way. I just went off of what I always saw when I was little.

If I'm trying to do something for myself and fail, I give up.

If I try to do something for someone else, and fail, I keep trying.

Why?

Sometimes I feel like doing something for myself isn't worth it. It's like, why bother? I'd rather see him happy, because it makes me happy. A little cliche, but true.

I don't want to be a short fuse, having people walk on egg shells around me. So, because I'm the way I am, I try to be understanding when someone is in a bad mood.

We all have our days. But why do I have so many?

Ugh.

What's my reason for being so angry? Don't get me wrong, I have very good moments. Others, not so much. I think I need to cleanse my life of certain stresses. For some reason, I feel I can't escape them.