Oops

Sometimes there's just those days where you just bite your tongue after you say something so stupid. I have good intentions, but sometimes it just doesn't come out right. You know?

I feel bad, but then I don't. Usually when something "comes out wrong" it really doesn't. Your mouth speaks faster than your mind can think. So you say things that you don't mean to say, even if you really do mean so say them. Are you following this?

I have things that I want to say. I think we all do. But we are to worried about what will happen if we say what we want. Why bite our tongues to save the feelings of another? Because we care too much, that's why.

I feel like a certain period in my life is blocked out because certain things happened. Honestly, I'm over it. I have to be in order for things to be ok. I just want to be open enough to talk about it. I know it's not fair of me because I know if it was me on the other side, I'm sure I wouldn't want to talk about it. But who knows, I haven't even put myself in that situation anyways. I don't want to talk about it really, but rather acknowledge that it happened, instead of pretending it didn't because honestly, I didn't forget about it. Getting through things like that is what makes us stronger, is it not?

I got the itch..

So.. I got my first big check from work today. OMG I'm excited. It's double ehat I usually got at my old job. It's amazing to actually have money. So, I spoiled myself and bought 2 pairs of jeans from Goodwill. LOL They are pretty nice ones too. One is Hollister and the other pair is Glo. Pretty sweet huh?

The only thing that sucks is that I'm so used to budgeting my money according to my old salary, I'm pretty stingy. But now that I have the extra money, I just feel like I want to spend it LOL. I got the itch to spend money. I really should wise up and SAVE some. After all, I do have college expenses coming up!

Woo hoo! College.

I'm pretty nervous. I shouldn't be though right? I don't want to get lost. I don't want to be late. I don't want to have a hard time balancing everything (school, work, life..)

It's coming so fast I have no clue how to handle it all. What's to come of me?

I know I will be that nerdy girl walking around with a campus map trying to find her way. What's the shame in that right? Atleast I'm there.

We'll see how it all turns out soon. 31 days to go.

Hidden Pleasures

This isn't on of my intense blogs stating my thoughts and issues. I figured I'd lighten it up a bit and tell you one of my hidden pleasures.

My favorite show of all time -I even love it more than Family Guy!- is One Tree Hill. I just can't get over it. It seems silly to be so caught up in a tv show, but I love it! It relates to you in a way you can't even explain. It makes you want to be in the show. You feel what they're showing you.. it's crazy. I can't wait until the new season starts. There's another month left! I'm so excited.

If you don't know what show this is.. youtube it, google it, watch it, download it, whatever. You need to see it! It's a.m.a.z.i.n.g!

In a way my secret fantasy is to be in that show. Seems a little weird, but I just love how close everyone is. I'd do without the drama LOL but even the drama is great. Ahhh I love it. I can't even explain how much. It's one of the things I look forward to. You don't know how hard it is to go everyday wondering who Lucas called at the end of season 5 to go get married in Las Vegas, or if Dan survived, and how Nathan's basketball and Haley's singing is going. I can't waittttttt!!!

<3333 OneTreeHill <3333

One of those Days.

We all have "those days" that just don't feel too great. Somehow it seems there's no avoiding them. I feel so exhausted lately and yet feel like I have done nothing. Is it the nerves setting in about school coming up? I feel bad, as I know it's not easy to deal with my mood swings. I feel like I'm pushing people away when I freak out for no reason. I probably do. I don't want to!

As sad as it seems, the weather, and also other people's moods affect me too. If I'm hot and uncomfortable I get crabby. If other people are idiots or are in a bad mood, I get in a bad mood.

When I feel rushed sometimes I get frustrated. Today I had to work at 4. I went to the zoo and was so worried that I would be late for work. We ended up leaving with about 1 1/2 hours to spare before I had to work. So it looks like there was no use for me to get worked up. I also felt guilty as it looked like my nephew-in-law didn't even enjoy the zoo. Why? I loved the zoo when I was little.

Then, I get to work and read all these rude emails that were forwarded to everyone. Nice huh?

But right now, I'm fine. Today I'm really up and down. I almost cried my eyes out off of a Drake&Josh episode. That show is supposed to be FUNNY.

I feel like I'm better now though. I'm up and down today. Sometimes it's more than just today. But I like to think that most days, I am enjoyable. When did I even start being that way? What changed me? I really want to change back to my wonderful self. The one I love is far too important not to.

I love you babe.

<33

Am I..

Are you a good girlfriend?


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Inspirtation..

Inspired by one of the fabulous Jade blogs.. I decided to kill some time and do some quizzes. Lets see the results..

1. What Are you like?

You are very confident. You really don't give two hoots about what other people think about you. You have the confidence, skills and abilities of a leader. But whats most important, you have moral perseverance!! They are few people in the world who can stick to their own morals and beliefs. The human mind is easily swayed and people easily give up what they believe in order to go along with the common crowd. You don't care about trying to fit in. If you know you are right and what you are doing is correct, you will go along with it till the very end.

2. What pattern are you?

You are dots..

Just like you, dots are fun and cool. They are always a great pattern to have in your closet and go great with anything. You don't like being alone but sometimes too many friends can get you tired out but you are so not a fly on the wall and can always get a friend to reply to your text messages!

3. What song are you?

Shut Up and Let Me Go- By: The Ting Tings

4.What sport is for you?

Hockey. (I have to argue with this one because I don't like hockey LOL)

I think I'm done posting these for now. 8] see ya