We never know what tomorrow will bring. It's as simple as that. The ones you count on might not always be there, that "perfect" job one day might not look so perfect, or even the place you see yourself in might just fade away. It's crazy to think abut, even a bit depressing.
I have grown so attached to my life as it is now, really just one aspect of it, I don't want it to change. I fear that change. I need certain things in my life to always remain constant. I need my soul mate. Yea, I said soul mate. I honestly believe I have him, standing right in front of me. And it feels so great to say that -- I have him-- ME, like no one else has ever, or will ever, have him. I love that feeling.
For someone to have that kind of hold on your heart, it's mind blowing. If you truly think about it, I mean really think about it, you're trusting them with your whole being. You will fight to the death to just keep that feeling of love in your life. And to know that feeling is shared, makes it even better. You are so connected to someone, you feel their happiness, their worries, and even their pain. To realize how much you really love and need someone, you feel completely powerless. I sit here in awe just thinking about the complexities of it all.
He has helped me grow in such a way I can't even explain. We have experienced and seen so many new things, it's amazing. Not only have I grown, but we've grown together. There are things that I've done that I know I would have never accomplished if it wasn't for him. And for that, I am forever thankful. He took away the cautious side of me, for the most part. He's taught me to just jump in already, literally.
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