We all have "those days" that just don't feel too great. Somehow it seems there's no avoiding them. I feel so exhausted lately and yet feel like I have done nothing. Is it the nerves setting in about school coming up? I feel bad, as I know it's not easy to deal with my mood swings. I feel like I'm pushing people away when I freak out for no reason. I probably do. I don't want to!
As sad as it seems, the weather, and also other people's moods affect me too. If I'm hot and uncomfortable I get crabby. If other people are idiots or are in a bad mood, I get in a bad mood.
When I feel rushed sometimes I get frustrated. Today I had to work at 4. I went to the zoo and was so worried that I would be late for work. We ended up leaving with about 1 1/2 hours to spare before I had to work. So it looks like there was no use for me to get worked up. I also felt guilty as it looked like my nephew-in-law didn't even enjoy the zoo. Why? I loved the zoo when I was little.
Then, I get to work and read all these rude emails that were forwarded to everyone. Nice huh?
But right now, I'm fine. Today I'm really up and down. I almost cried my eyes out off of a Drake&Josh episode. That show is supposed to be FUNNY.
I feel like I'm better now though. I'm up and down today. Sometimes it's more than just today. But I like to think that most days, I am enjoyable. When did I even start being that way? What changed me? I really want to change back to my wonderful self. The one I love is far too important not to.
I love you babe.
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